i feel like crap now. because of many things. life just like this. when it decides that you should go down, you just simply go down. just like that. made many wrong choices this week. and damn this week. i hate this week. if i got a choice again, i will choose a different route this time.even though i know it took me time to change what is between,but what ever happen just show me that it will be better that way. my feelings just got trampled by a mega elephant. sometimes, people can just be a little more sensitive to other feelings, can just stop acting like they are really right and what they do is right when they don't even know what they are talkng about in the first place, being a little more appreciative and treat people the same way how they treated you, it's just crap to talk about how thankful what people had done for you when you just throw trash at them, it's just simply contradiciting okay and don't tell me to be okay and all when i'm not bothered and it's you who is bothered, i repeat once again, i'm not bothered at all, it has been years, i'm freaking immune to all that craps that happen and yes, you are the one who always think that i'm bothered and send me unneccessary stuff that completely ruin my mood, not anyone, but you, yes you. once again, i'm feeling disappointed with myself, when will you learn to block and delete, i'm tired with going through this again and again. you need to learn to be firm, don't be so easily swayed, and lastly, learn to be the controller of your own emotions and not let others affect or control them. if you don't learn that, your feelings are just gonna be trampled on again and again and yes, you deserved it.

note: if you think you are the one, that's your problem. don't question me about anything, cause if i want everyone to know what is happening, i wouldn't have typed stuff this way. i'm feeling *&%&%* now, so whatever i type now might be just in a moment of all the fished-up feelings inside me, so if you think anything is offensive, that's your problem. cause nobody told you to read them and please, nobody writes nicey stuff when they are feeling totally fished up. i just need my space to breathe, and please respect my space. afterall, really, nobody told you to visit this blog.