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hello, welcome (:
as of 31 march 2009
a 16 day journey that ended. (:
Wednesday, December 24, 2008 ( 3:41 PM )
it's amazing right? one day i'm unhappy, then the next day, i'm happy.
& then, one hour into the next day, i'm totally shattered into pieces.
it amazes me how my mood can change.
no more countdown; no more x'mas; no more you.
16 days, i refuse to count the 17th, it's not a day i want to remember at all.
at this point of time, i wish i slept earlier, so early that we wouldn't have the conversation, then it might be more than 16 days.
you've already make a choice, you just dknw how to say it, so i said it for you.
i wish again, i wish again, i wish i was wrong about your choice, but apparently it's not the case.
you would have said something if it was wrong.
silence makes me feel very empty, i dknw how to react.
i dknw what are you thinking.
i'm not sure if i'm right or wrong.
it was raining last night till today, i'm acty glad it rained, at least i'm not alone.
suddenly, i feel lost, i dknw where my courage, faith & hope come from in the first place.
why i lead myself to a path that i had been trying to avoid for the one year plus.
16 days, 639 text, hours & hours on the phone, how did all this happened?
but narh, not regretting, just wonder why can't all this just go on.
i give up before even trying, i just can't feel that you wants to & things acty mattered to you.
'after awhile, you will get over' it says a lot.
you gave up even before trying, so why should i do it alone.
besides, even it's not something we have a choice in.
& for once, i'm glad that we don't have one.
so it pretty much sums up everything.
it's time to start mending the pieces, staying home for x'mas & studying hard
study is my security, shall not stray away from it again (:
it shows me the way.
i wish you the best (:
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